If you want to increase your self-awareness, you need feedback.
Friends are mostly useless for feedback. They are too diplomatic. They don’t want to hurt your feelings.
That’s why enemies are useful. Enemies want to hurt you. They want to take you down. They will ruthlessly home in on the chinks in your armour.
Your enemies will teach you more about yourself than your friends.
Pay attention to how enemies attack you, so you can fill the cracks.